IHG X-campus

this is 24hrs late, since the race had finished for a day already, but i feel the need to blog bout it.

yesterday started fine, i was just hoping that everything would go by smoothly and i knew i still had a bit of preparations to do. i made a mental note of what i needed to do and went on with the day.

actually not. i skipped lecture for the first time simply because i didnt feel like going. so i stayed in my room and went through the notes for the past few lectures of social psych.

when it was near my next lesson and noon, i went out to head off for deviance lect. along the way, i bumped into 3 people from hall, and they wished me gd luck for the race. then i went into lecture.

that was when it happened. i had such a bad panic attack in the middle of lecture. i could barely concentrate on the what my lecturer was saying. i suddenly felt so tired and so stressed. at one point i was on the verge of tears. so many worries were going through my mind and it was just such a horrible feeling.

when i finally did manage to calm myself down (deep breaths and prayer), i made a physical note of what i had to do. it actually did help, and i was able to concentrate more on the lect after that...

ok now fast forward to 6pm when i met the officials (in b/w i prepared things for the race) briefing was such a mess, and there were a couple of complications that i faced. however with the help of weizhong, things managed to fall in place.

i was actually quite glad the race managed to start more or less on time, with little delay (of course, having a loud hailer helps)
even though my guys came in 4th, i was happy with the effort they put in. it was all over their faces when they came in. for this i was really thankful and appreciative of them. well done guys!

the post race meeting was quite draining and tense,as all the captains came together to thrash out some of the controversies that arose. all in all, i think everyone was quite satisfied with the outcome, and thanks all for the positive feedback i recieved!

this x-campus captain stint was quite a journey. im glad that it's over, cause now i can balance my training schedule better, though there is a bit of me that just seems to be lingering on the event... i dunno, call it whatever u like, but i believe that this event helped me grow.... maybe just a little bit. but i did.

Thank You Lord for holding up the weather, answering my prayers.

now the only thing i can do is to stop thinking the dreaded question of what if......